Really living in "No fear"

So for the last few weeks or months maybe to be more realistic, I have been living in some fears in areas of my life to do with my future, of living in a different land that is very different to my culture, where I have no family there, I don't have a YWAM base there, right now I don't have a solid team. So really God thats my future, so many questions how will it work, how will I be safe, I can't be there on my own? So many questions....... One that have been holding me back from the plans of God.

Even to the fact of who am I trusting? God or other people in my life to keep me safe, to protect me and to keep me from harm.....

But tonight I was so challenged of How does God see me? How does he look at me? How is he towards me?

I asked him, and He showed me a picture, and reminded me of a moment that had happened in the past. One night I was standing at the back of a room whilst we were having a worship night and I saw my friends little girl sitting playing on the floor, she was just playing then after a while she realised she was on her own and she started to look around and as she was doing this she was seeking out her dad. He bottom lip started to go and she was looking lost and a bit nervous for where was her Dad.

Then all of a sudden she sensed him right behind her, He was reaching down to get her because he had seen her seeking him.

As soon as she turned and her eyes met his eyes her face changed and she relaxed, she had peace, she was SAFE, her Dad was wrapping his arms round her and pulling her into his embrace, she was safe, she was no longer alone, she was secure.

This is what God showed me and said this is how I see you everyday, this is how I hold you and take care of you, this is how you are to me, I will take care of you, I will keep you safe, you are safe in my arms!!

How does God see you? Ask him.........

You are my everything.....

And I will adore you? .......

Tonight I was singing a song, in Worship and I felt a challenge and I wanna share it with you...

"Worthy, Worthy, Worthy,
is the Lord God almighty, 
who was and is and is to come, 
with all creation i sing, 
praise to the King of kings 
you are my everything and I will adore you" 

I was like do I realise what I am singing? "You are my everything, and I will adore you", in my heart I was thinking is God my everything is He enough for me or am I always seeking more from life or things....

God reminded me of a time when I was travelling the first time to Brasil, this trip was a miracle its self, it was a dream that came true from the age of 14yrs and 14yrs later I was on my dream journey to Brasil.

At the time of embarking on this trip it meant I had to give up my job at home in England, I was leaving Mexico, flying on 11 flight in the next 2 weeks to get to Brasil and return finally to England.

This journey was huge, I was alone, it was my first time to Brasil, I didn't speak the language, my bank card had expired, I had no international phone, no internet, the money I had on me was all I had, some of it was $10 Canadian dollars, $10 USA dollars and Reals for Brasil!!

It was me and God, I had nothing to fall back on in emergency or anything no credit cards or nothing, this was a true adventure, however what God showed me on this trip was that he supplies all my needs, he provided me large coffee when I only had the money for a small, someone gave me a $5 Starbucks card for a 16 hour layover in Canada, and I only had $10 for food. He provided me free hotels when flights were disrupted, I made some friends, who would help me rebook flights, and talk to the people I was meeting on their phones as I didn't have a phone and couldn't speak Portuguese. He protected me in situations that may have been unsafe, 10 out of the 11 flights I sat next to Christians who really helped and encouraged me and still today some are my friends. He also gave me such peace, when I felt lost and alone, when I didn't know what to do He showed me!

When I was thinking back on this story, I was so overwhelmed by God and His greatness and that He knows my every need, He is my everything, He is greater than any circumstance we find ourselves in, He is more powerful than any of our needs, hurts and disappointments, He is Victorious and He is worthy of so so much!!

So "You are my everything, and I will adore you"!!