The End has come but it's really just the beginning…..

This has been a long, intense, but incredible 9 months of my life where i have experienced walking through each verse of every book of the bible, battling with fears of failing, fears of disappointing people who have been investing, fears of not understanding and being stupid to having my heart changed brought into freedom from them fears, from them unbelief's and the lies that have been a part of me for years and now…….

Daily i can live in the truth of who I am, I can know that I am adopted son of the Creator God that, I can trust him 100% in his character, i know that He knows me, He knows my every need from how little that may be to how Big that may be too!!

So here is a short story of His Goodness………

It was my friends Birthday and we wanted to go and have breakfast to celebrate as it was her first Birthday away from her family. So we go to a little Mexican Cafe to have breakfast and we are enjoying our conversations and having a nice time…..

So we ask for the bill, the lady brings it over and we all start to work out our amounts that we need to pay and I am short by a few pessos and then my other friend is too but we are thinking we will work it out….

Anyway the waitress comes over again and places another Bill on the table and it is blank except it says "Dios Es Bueno" in English this means "God is Good" so we look at it…. we look at the waitress and she is smiling and smiling and she says "Someone gave me this and your bill is paid you don't need to pay any money"

We are all so in shock and so thankful to God and the generous person God used to pay our breakfast as it was such an incredible blessing to us…..

I love how God knows his children, he knows our needs and he chooses to bless us daily!!!!

I know this is the God that I live for and love…..

So in two days time i will graduate from my school and i will embark on a 6 week outreach in Brasil - Stay tuned for more stories

A Missionary…. What the heck???!!!!

For the last few weeks this has been a struggle that i have been wrestling with that i want to share with you…. I wonder if this has ever been any thoughts or questions that you have even asks yourself either about you or about my life and the decisions that i make. If you have that's ok, i want you to know i sometimes ask God the same………. 

"Seriously God i need to know i need to hear from you, i don't understand how being a missionary for you works, i am a year an a half in and i am so unsure that how every day i trust in you for my everything, for laundry powder, for money for gas to do ministry and all things like this, for when my computer breaks and i don't know what to do when i don't work and i don't make my own money. Am i being irresponsible or is this really possible is this really real that i can do this that i can really trust you for all these things and that you provide that you will give me everything that is needed. Can you keep giving me the strength to lay down my rights my wants and my dreams to pick up yours? 

God, should i just come home and work and provide for myself, be there in England with my family that i miss so much everyday and love them for everything that they are." 

This is the reality that i have been questioning in my mind for the last few weeks but you know what one night i got my answer…..

God broke in and spoke so much to me, i felt settled in my heart that i was in the right place that this is what he made me for that this is the walk that he has called me to right now and he is taking me on a deeper journey of trusting and having faith in him and in him alone and not in other things around me. 

That he said "I have made you to love across borders, I have made you to see past divides in society, I have made you adaptable to all cultures that you feel at home in all countries and this is how he has created me, this is how I call you to be I ask you to love the people that are forgotten, to love the kids that have no value or identity, that don't have any safety or boundaries that are being sold that are being prostituted and to bring love to them that is pure that is real and that is ever lasting, wow God ok really this is hard this is not easy and I need you God to do this in me, I need you to guide me everyday…."

So with this being said he has given me a deep peace and grace to take each day as it comes to live on the edge with him everyday, to be learning to become more like God daily and to life content wherever I am in the world and to be available to love serve………