Welcome to the best Dad I know

This is my second week back in Bible school and it has been a week that has touched my heart so much that I am broken again in my heart for the Love that God has for me and for each one of us, it has humbled my heart and brought tears of thankfulness, let me tell you.....................

Can you imagine you are a father, you love your child so so much with all your heart, you want the best for him or her, you want to show them everything you made for them; you want to share all the fun things in life with them, you want to see there faces when they smile and you want to be the one that wraps them in your arms when they are hurting or are sad or sick, you tell them off when they are naughty because you love them and you want them to be the best person they can be. Well this is how God has been and is with us every day!!

Studying through the Old Testament with every book I see God's passionate pursuit for his peoples hearts he is running after them, they need water, he gives it, they need food, he gives it, they face impossible situations and God shows them a away through it. He loves and loves and loves on them all the time even though they are sinning and turning their backs on Him and worshiping other gods and treating others unfairly.

"He will tend His flocks like a shepherd: 

he will gather the lambs in his arms; he will carry them in His bosom, 

and gently lead those that are with young" 

Isaiah 40 v 11

In Isaiah this week we are seeing how God's heart was so broken over the pain of his people not following Him. We see that God has so much love for them that he restores them, he rebuilds what is ruined and he restores their hearts, he brings them out of Exile....

 "I have blotted out your transgressions like a cloud,

 and your sins like a mist, returned to me for I have redeemed you" 

Isaiah 44 v 22

We read about so many prophecies about,...JESUS coming, this is how much God loves His people even after they for years have turned their back again and again to Him, He still loves them with His whole heart and wants to give them something so precious to Him.

So seeing these prophecies in Isaiah about Jesus coming and how he is sent to earth to show us how to live with each other, how to love each other and to be kind to those around us and afar, to be generous, to share, to be gracious, to have mercy and to walk how Jesus did........... He never judged, he never thought he was better than anyone else, he had a humble heart he was selfless, he was someone who loved and loved those that no one else wanted to love!!

For me this has shown me even more how God Loves us so much, that he wants us to live our lives with him, it made me be so thankful of God's heart for never giving up on me, even when I have turned my back on Him, even when I have done things that I know have hurt God and gone against his will, he has never left me or ever turned against me, he has taken me back with open arms and loved me unconditionally!!


That's the Dad I want you all to know, like I am blessed to know............

A new year is coming.............

I cant believe the year that I have had, started off living back at home with the parents which I hadn't done for 11 years, and then in March I moved back out to Tijuana Mexico!!

In the last 9 months I have seen God's power and known Him in a deeper way than ever before, I have seen more of his character, more of how it is all about Him and not me, that He is doing so much more than I could ever for the people around me and our team!! I have seen finances come in for my school fees, I needed $1,700 for each term/semester and I am able to pay for two of the three terms/semesters, which is a massive testimony of people's generosity and Gods provision for this situation.

Firstly I was staffing for the first 5 months the Diciplship Training School where we had 17 students from about 5 different nations, we saw each student grow, and discover more of God and who each of us are in God. We then lead an outreach for 2 of those months to Mexico City for 2 weeks and then 6 weeks in Rio De Janiero Brazil!!

In these two months we saw people knees get healed and hearts healed from hurt and disappointment, we were able to serve the community with the local churches and see God move and encourage people in their walk with Him. We did Kids clubs too!! Then in Brazil we ran English and Spanish lessons, kids clubs and church services, dramas and songs in school, and just to serve and love the people we met.

This is a time that was amazing for all of us in so many ways we learned so much, were humbled by God providing miracles and learning more of how He cares for us daily.

We then came back to Tijuana and the DTS finished, some students coming back to the base to staff and others leaving for their home towns and carry Jesus with them to spread what they learnt!!!

I then have completed the first 3 months of the Chronological School of Biblical Studies, its hard work but i love it, It has truely changed my world and my understanding of the Bible and God and his character!!

In 3 Days time i will be returning to Tijuana and will be straight back into the next 3 months of Bible School!! I am looking forward to it so much!!

I have had such a precious, blessed time since i have been home in England seeing all my friends and family. I have laughed so much that my eyes are sore from crying laughing, its been nice having Summer fruits squash again haa ha ha and spending time with everyone. I have had such fun with Lilly and Benny and seeing how they have grown so much and are so so  much fun!! It will be hard to leave but i know i am going back to my second home too and look forward to seeing friends there again!!

I want to say a massive thank you to all of you who have been reading, following, praying and supporting me in friendship and finances throughout this year, i would not have been able to do this without you all, so thank you for being a part of this vision God has called me too and i pray massive blessings on you all and massive hugs from me and my heart if full of gratitude to you all!!

Thanks Giving........................

Yesterday was one of my best days........

We got to do a thanks giving meal for 600 women, men and children who live in the streets in the Zona Norte Area in Tijuana. This is where they have been deported from the states and brought over the border with no way of getting home.

Stepping into the park was amazing, there was such a buzz, conversations, hugs, laughter, worship and love everywhere I looked!! This was such a special thing for everyone. It was a time to really celebrate their lives, and treasure them with the love that they deserve from God and us. It was a time to be family with them, as many peoples family, wives and children are in the states or different parts of Mexico. One man was telling me that he was trying to get 50pesos (40p, 25c) so he could get a ticket home to be with his wife and 2 children. He was trying to sell two little necklaces, but he has been there for months.

Ma y Baby

One lady who we know from week to week was enjoying the day yesterday. She was sharing her little 2 month baby with us and liking that we were holding the baby and making a fuss of him. She has been living in Zona Norte for a long time and she had the baby there. For me, I am still not understanding how this is possible for the baby to be well. I know God must have his hand of protection over both mum and baby, as it is a very dangerous place to be. Please continue to pray for this little family, that she will be able to find somewhere stable for her and the little babe soon.

This day was amazing,especially as this week in school we have been learning about the book of Job, which is a book about a man that was a God fearing man, who had everything. Satan took all Job had away: family, livestock and livelihood. God knew that Job loved him and knew he would stand true to Him. God blessed him abundantly for the later years of his life. In studying this book taught me so much more about how to be grateful for all I have and not to take that for granted, but also to know the immense power of God and that if I had nothing would God be enough for me? This was such a point for me to think and consider, is God really enough for me? If all else was gone, would I have complete faith and trust in him and him alone?!

Going to Zona Norte and seeing that these people have nothing around them but they are longing after God was a real life example and challenge for me in my faith and in my relationship with God!!  

Please take a few mins to have a look at our day
in Zona Norte!!! I like the share the fun with you all!!

Redemption.............................

This week in our community meeting we had the chance to listen to this Dan Brauman who was arrested in Iran for being a missionary and potentially being a spy!!

Things were desperate and he clung to who God was and His character as that was all that made sense to him in that time.

I sat listening, glued to what he was saying and seeing how He has such incredible faith in God in that time of hopelessness but he still offered Jesus' love to his Interrogator. The man that beat him daily.

This is the power and strength of God!!

Can you ever imagine.................................................

Ideally i would love to be speaking this to you so that you can close your eyes and imagine what you would be feeling and experiencing when i tell you this....................................

Can you imagine being pulled over by the Police one day and being asked for your paperwork, your licence, and you don't have it right so for us we would have a couple of weeks to take this to the Police Station, well not in the states. So they arrest you, put you in a cell, you don't get the chance to call home or anything, you don't have anything on you and you are then taken into a bus and you are driven to the Border of Mexico, Tijuana. This country is new to you, you have been brought up in the states all your life, you don't speak the language, know the culture and you have no phone, no identification, no money on you nothing and you are dropped the other side of the border where life is so very different to what you can imagine.

Maybe you can see the states through the border fence but you are a million years away from home, family, mum, dad, sons, daughters, husband, wife....................

The Border , San Diego is through the fence

Unlike home there is no homeless shelters, no food banks, no day center, no benefit help, just the concrete floor to sleep on and about 500 other men and women who have had the same experience who are looking for survival. Who are keeping a low profile so they don't get taken into the trafficking trade for sex or drugs.

Can you imagine this??!!

Zona Norte

Can you imagine not talking to family, not knowing when or if you will see your kids, spouse, parents, brothers, sisters again.....................

I cant imagine this, i cant imagine sleeping at night on the streets being scared, will you be jumped, mugged, robbed, raped, attacked.

This is miles from what you have been living in your house, working your job and maybe one day you ran a red light or were speeding................................

This is what i was asked to Imagine this morning and God really touched my heart, i felt His heart breaking for the people down in Zona Norte, Tijuana. Where hope seems non existent, happiness seems to be lost and real love is rare.

 Old lady works to get money as people wait in the Border Line!

Well this is where we are called too and this is where God longs us to be, this is where my heart longs to be, to love the way God loved us and to bring hope and family to these precious people who made a mistake, haven't we all done that one time or another...........

"The spirit of the lord God is upon me because he has appointed me to preach Good News to the poor, bind up the brokenhearted and proclaim freedom to the captives..... Isaiah 61 v 1-2

Falling face down................................ The Epic Journey..............

Falling face down because there is no other words to say what is happening in my heart!! In these last few weeks i have been studying the first 4 books of the Old testament. Maybe your thinking " oh that's going to be so boring I will not read any more but please don't go, stay and just read"

I was so like this when it comes to the Old testament and in fact just reading to be honest i would read a page of a book and think that was good going, well done Paula and walk off and do something else more fun!!

Well no chance of that in Bible school, but i love it!!!! We have been reading about Moses and the Israelite and their epic journey into the wilderness, in search of the Promised Land that God had prepared for them whilst learning and discovering How God loved them, what He is like and so much more!!

I have been seeing How Moses lead this whole group of crazy (and that putting it politely) people over miles and miles of desert. He said to God he couldn't do it and yeah in his own strength no he defiantly couldn't!! But that is the cool part we get to see how God provides food for them, water, safety, He provides laws, which bring protection, value, love and respect into peoples lives and families. We get to see how God pursues us, even when we walk away and turn our back and think we can do life without Him (Which i have done many times) We get to see all of this but God is still there tapping us on the shoulder or in our hearts saying " hey come be with me i love you, i will look out for you, i will provide for your every need"

Thank you beautiful people for supporting me!!

And yeah you know what i am learning every day how i need and want God in my life, He longs for me to be sharing his plans for the future of this world with me!! I am just me, not a high up person but he longs for this with each one of us, it doesn't matter who you are, where you have come from or anything else He wants your heart and will pursue you!!

I have seen God's provision this week in my finances, i needed just over $500, i had no idea where it would come from, but God put it on people's hearts to support me in this journey and to believe in the vision God has given me.
My heart is overwhelmed by the love He has for us and how He cares about the details of our life!! I thank you all so much for being with me, I am so grateful to you all and love to you all!!!!
I am still on this journey of faith and trusting God for everything, so please continue praying for me to learn, be safe in God and in Finances!!

A day in life of Me the CSBS student...........................

Welcome to my day...........................................
 " Oh really alarm seriously 6:30am already, ok time to start the day, I find the beginning is always hardest part of all!! So anyway you don't need to know about me showering, getting dressed, doing hair and make-up, that's standard!!

Cleaning time!!

So 8am in the classroom, I clean and make sure it is all nice free from ants and random crumbs from snakes that keep us going through lecture!!!

Class time!!

8:30am we have a base meeting, sharing, worship, praying and learning different things!! I like this time as we are all together in the morning.


Then we get coffee, because this is so the key to surviving in school ha ah ah I love it!! This is the first school I really love and wanna be here so that is so good!!! Oh and we have a new pet sheep as apart of the class!!

We make a chat for each chapter!!

Family lunch time, time to relax have fun, eat and the best is when its Mexican for sure!!

Then we have homework............... this takes most afternoon and most of the evening, so that's my life right now but I love learning and growing so much in what God has said and his plan for us!!

Some of my school friends!!

So I will be in this school for 9 months and i know it will be the best education i will ever get, I really love it and I know this is where is should be right now, I know this is my training time and after this i will be with the people in community. I am in need of support in prayer for discipline and financial support, I have some supporters who have helped me get this far and i am so happy and grateful that they are behind what God has spoken to me, but this isn't just my life this is a life i am living for God and you are all in this with me so please continue to partner with me I really value it!!


For each  quarter I need $2,180 (£1,343) This covers my food, utilities, accommodation, tuition, Internet and transport. So for this quarter I still need £350, If you feel like you would like to donate of support me monthly, please email me or leave a message here or you can look on www.ywamsandiegobaja.org and you can make a donation, just make sure that you say it is for me and place my name: Paula O'Sullivan.

Thank you for your prayers, love, friendship and support, it is amazing to do this with you all!!!

We always have a beautiful sunset each night!!!